Healer - Hillsong

You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease

I trust in you
I trust in you

I believe
You're my healer
I believe
You are all i need
I believe
You're my portion
I believe
You're more than enough for me
Jesus, you're all i need

Nothing is impossible for you
Nothing is impossible
Nothing is impossible for you
You hold my world in your hands

all bout zara!!! =.=

nah zara.. u call me to post something bout u rite... okay.. i'll do it for u...

bout zara :
- a girl
- 16 years old
- got 4 eyes XD
- a super blur girl
- like to bully guys wan
- pengacau!!! XD
- err.. still got wat ah... can't think of it..

so tats all la... satisfied???

random...

wow... can't believe myself too... i just finish my data entry...
ya.. who am i working for?? i'm just helping my sis la... n i'm just hoping tat she pay me... she still owe me bout rm30...

i've been typing for 2 days.. n ya... its super tiring... wat i did for the 2 days is:
wake up -> eat -> start work -> feel lazy -> sleep...
n i'm glad i've finally finish!!!

n ya... my church camp is gonna start soon... 2 more days... n i just can't wait for it!!!
wan to know more bout tis camp?? go to www.cuncamp.blogspot.com
=)

y keep on dc wan!!!

oi tmnet!!!
y my internet keep on dc wan??!!!
*frustrated*

4 days of so called "baby sitting"

sorry ya.. haven't been updating my blog... just feel veri lazy to update it..
n ya.. even after my spm.. tot will be having some good rest for bout a week.. n everything goes another way round.. its a tiring week!!

i wen back hometown for bout 4 days.. n guess who follow along.. my dad's sis n her cucu.. (=.=") n tis kids are 5 n 3 years old.. so my cousin n me actually take care of them for tis few days cos my dad's sis have things to do something. even though there r cute.. but sometimes... they r quite annoying n they irritate me everyday... urgh!!! can u imagine after they wake up.. the first thing is to come n find for u n wake u up... n the nite, u sleep bout 1am in the morning.. n for some of u.. u know i dislike ppl to disturbing my sleep.. but the thing is... they r still small n they dun realli know bout me... so i can't realli scold them..

the other thing bout them is... they r just so HYPER!!! i dun think they can sit still just for bout 5 mins... n u can't leave them alone as they will go out from the house no matter how u lock the door... tis is how smart they r... so u have to look at them all the time.. n they won listen to wat u say wan.. u call them to sit down.. after few second.. they will stand up n run ady wan...

ARGH!!!! they r touching my nerves!!! haih.. but still... kenot scold them... mayb tis is a test from God.. God is calling me to be patience... XD

IT IS FINISHED!!!! FINALLY!!!!

YES!!! i have been waiting for today for almost a month..
n finally spm is over!!

erm... the last paper was 1 of the most difficult paper i had ever done b4..
mayb i didn't realli study the night b4.. so mayb tis 1 should blame myself of not study...

the most stupid thing i ever did in tis exam is keep counting down even though i'm still half way through the exam.. keep counting how many hours, how many minutes left... n wen during last paper.. after the clock tick at 3.30pm. Ya.. all the voices like ahem, yes, finally... all can be heard in the hall.. even though we must still remain silents... n after the prefect say we can leave the hall... ya.. almost every1 was happy(of cos la)... n u can c smiling faces... n after stepping out the skul gate.. ya.. i'm no longer a student of SMK USJ 23...

so after spm.. i do have alot of plans.. n i ady plan it b4 my exam is over.. but i dun think i'm telling out my plans out.. so if wan to know.. ask me personally..

so i think tats all bout my update..
c ya...

8 down 2 more to go...

yes.. i am happy tat i oni have 2 more subject to go...
but at the same time.. it was a bad day to me too...
i have add maths paper...(STUPID IRRITATING PAPER EVER!!!)
the paper 1 was ok la.. can do la.. but not everything..

but wen it comes to paper 2.. the first page was quite easy to me... (nearly make some stupid mistake)..
as i'm turning to the second page.. hahaha.. difficult question started to come.. but nvm.. skip those question.. as i turn to third page.. same thing happen.. tis time more difficult.. as i keep on turning.. oni a few question i can do.. i was like.. WAT THE HELL!! R U JOKING WIT ME??!!! almost the whole paper dunno how to answer..

yeah.. i actually plan to sleep after finish the question i aiming for... n i end up.. rushing like mad cow just to do tat 7 question... CRAP!!

CONCLUSION:
I HATE U, ADD MATHS!!! GET LOST OF MY LIFE!!

papers yet to come:
-Physics
-Chemistry

SPM result prediction:
Bahasa Melayu - Pass (hopefully at least a grade C)
English - Pass (should be an A)
Sejarah - 50% pass 50% fail
EST - Pass (hopefully an A)
Maths - Pass (mayb an A)
ICT - Pass
Moral - Pass (mayb A)
Add Maths - 60~70% pass

wat a nice day... xD

today i actually went to a study group...
went out wit a bunch of frens.. adrian*,eng wan, aaron**, n me...
*the driver
**the teacher of the day.. xD

actually planning to go McD near the F&N wan.. after i think... veri noisy la.. so we change to plan.. we went till the McD near subang parade.. ( so far away )...

so reach there... still the same la... so noisy oso... nvm... so we started eating at first... full of jokes la... u wan good wan oso got.. dirty wan oso got... xD
after tat.. bout 30mins later.. study time.. we change place... to a more quiet place..

so study for bout 2~3 hours.. dunno got fully concentrate or not la.. but at least got listen la...

after tat.. we went to custom clothing.. my fren all go c shuffle things la.. totally none of my business... after tat.. we went to FTZ... n end up belanja adrian... we play cs... me n adrian kena pawn by them... =.=" but sometimes we kill them too... but not as many as them.. ( they win bout 3~5 matches more oni )

so after cs.. we actually went home la... no more money ady... (not me)..
n adrian driving after playing cs is like... i no comment... hahahahah... relax abit la... xD

so tat's how my days go..

*thanks guys for making tis days so nice...
adrian.. thanks for your ride..

4 down 6 to go

yeah.. i have not been updating for my blog for quite sometime.. so i'm here to update la..
n ya.. spm is in process... LOL.. so far 4 paper had passed...
-Bahasa Melayu
-English
-Sejarah
-EST

so now i have 6 more paper yet to go wit 18 more days to go...
-Maths
-Information Communication and Technology (ICT)
-Moral
-Add Maths
-Physics
-Chemistry

so after tat day.. i'm gonna throw my books n burn all my notes... xD
oh ya.. before i really go n burn.. if any1 wan the notes from me.. just tell me la.. i will sell it to u guys... n please.. dun sell it to publisher... its copyright..

SPM paper prediction (just the 4 subject tat i have sitted until now):
Bahasa Melayu - Pass ( hopefully at least a credit )
English - Pass ( should be an A )
Sejarah - 50% pass 50% fail
EST - Pass ( hopefully an A )

5 days more...

time have fly so fast.. n now still left 5 days more b4 my spm exam..
ya... it seem veri scary to me as the countdown become lesser n lesser.
n imagine if i fail BM... my life is GONE!! really going to be a gone case!!
even though ppl keep saying tat i won fail BM paper.. but who know.. everything is possible rite..
haih.. no mood to write ady.. write till here la..

ALL THE BEST TO SPM STUDENTS...

the day wen parents is not at home...

after captain ball today.. while was heading back home.. thinking tat my parents are at home n my dinner is already prepared on the table...

wen i reach home..
hmm.. my dad's car wasn't around.. from then.. oni i remember tat they wen to malacca..
but nvm.. i think the dinner is already prepared by my sister.. as i open the door.. the tv was on.. but where is my sister?? n look at the dining table.. NO FOOD!!! CRAP!!
as i head to the kitchen.. she just start to cut the veg.. ISH!!! my stomach is yelling for food n yet she haven't started cooking..
so i actually help her.. while in the kitchen.. lots of jokes flying around.. hehehe.. biase lar..
hahaha..cooking time.. n yah.. my sister cook something to do wit the bringal.. n it end up.. too salty n she forgotten to put in sugar.. so it's totally a FAIL!!! (sorry la.. your brother is tat bad xD)hehehe...
oh ya.. i cook too... i cook ommelete(dunno spell correct or not)wit onion.. n the result was.. it taste good.. WOAH!!!
n we oso warm up some left over food.. so.. it end up wit quite a good dinner la.. not bad..
n oso not forgetting bout my brother.. even though he din realli know how to cook.. but at least he help us to cook the rice.. =)

bout the my week.....

ya.. tis blog is basically a update for my cg member...
i haven't been attending cg for cg for quite sometime.. for some stupid reason actually.. but nvm... i'm actually not given a choice.. i have to try my best to beg my dad.. but my dad din realli wan listen to me... so i have to follow the choice he made.. but i realli hope to get back to cg again!! I CANT WAIT FOR IT!!!

so basically tis is update from me...
tis week has been a week full of ups n downs... mayb i give some highlights la...
i have fallen sick again.. wat to do... n yah... i cut down alot on my sleeping.. have to study for spm la. no choice.. hehehe xD everyday sleep almost bout 2am just to study.

still remember.. got 1 nite.. i slept at 5am in the morning... hehehe... chatting wit kelvin.. wat we talk?? not going to tell... secret... not oni tat.. my sickness oso eventually recovered.. MIRACLE!!! hahaha xD
not oni tat.. the same day. i wen to mamak wit kelvin.. n please.. we r just fren.. NOT GAY!!!

on friday.. me n kelvin again... we 2 actually wen out to watch cloudy wit a chance of a meat ball.. the show was so so la.. but i oso actually learn a few things from the show.. not oni tat.. before we go n watch the movie.. we actually saw ivan.. we have lunch wit him at McD..

n yesterday.. i was at skul for my skul graduation day.. hmmm.. time realli flies n tis years is the final year i'm at tat skul.. it was pretty boring actually.. my main point of going is actually to get my certificate!! n i have to paid RM30 to go to tat graduation day.. i actually tot we will have good food there.. end up.. err... not realli nice...

ok la.. i update till here la.. there is still alot.. but i will tell u guys wen i come back to cg ok... i promise my week will not be oni bout sleep.. XD hehehe
n yah.. for SPM student!!! STUDY HARD N STUDY SMART!!!! DUN LAZY ALREADY!!!! XD

days to go....

as my days passing by... it seem to be more n more stressful...
wat to do... spm coming soon ady... 28 days more to spm..
as tis 28 days reduce day by day.. i hope i can continue my studies n still continue to learn wat i'm still weak at...

but not forgetting bout God while in my busy days to come.. i know He will give me the strength to go by the days of difficulties..

do i really let God to control of me??

as i'm reading a passage from the Bible. it written "Behold, I stand at the door and knock, if any one hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and eat with him, and he with Me. - Revelation 3:20

it seem like i have open the door for Christ to come in... but did i really give Him everything tat i have? or just inviting Him as my guest?

Dear Lord Heavenly Father,
mayb i'm still can't realli let God take control of me.. still struggling to let go my earthly desire.. but.. i pray that everything tat i can draw closer to u n 1 day to fully let You control of me...
In Jesus name
AMEN

A Sleepless Nite

Q : What is the first thing tat come into your mind wen some1 talk bout Meng Xian??
A : pig, siao, ham sap ( I'm NOT!!!! ), etc etc etc

ya.. i'm a person who like to sleep.. but some miracle happen yesterday midnite.. i wasn't sleeping at all!! ( REALLI!! )
WHY?
WHY?
WHY?
my nose is giving me a super big problem... i'm actually having cold. ( not H1N1 ). so the whole nite i can't sleep... ISH!!! so tis is basically how my midnight go...

12am - 2am : watch F1 ( nice race )
2am - 4am : wen to sleep. but was turning around and try to make myself comfortable. but i cont turning for 2 hours ( although i'm veri sleepy )
4am - 4.15am : wen downstairs to find for medicine to eat.. found some medicine n eat (i dunno wat medicine i'm eating oso ) LOL XD
4.15 - 5am : seem like the medicine i eat gave some good effect. BUT, it oni lasted for bout 15min and it gone!! ( CRAP!!! )
5am : gave up sleeping ady!!!!

so tat nite was totally sleepless.. i oni fallen asleep at bout 7am or something lidat...

13/10/2009

my gerak gempur finally finish!!!
wat a super long exam... almost for a month!!
today i actually have 3 papers.. ICT paper n EST!!!

ICT paper : was hard cos din realli study for it... n yet i can give answer to my fren... LOL XD.. (tats wat i do normal wen come to ICT paper)

EST paper : 1 of the best paper i ever had in my life.. i sit in a air-cond room during tis exam... (FOR MY FIRST TIME!! after study in tat skul for 5 years)
actually me n my fren suppose to have a plan wen we r sitting for EST paper.. we wanted to do a experiment about how we answer EST paper 2 wit us being drunk...(we got mental case xD )... but so sad... 1 of my fren told us paper 2 is on 14/10/2009.. so we finish our paper witout being drunk...

to pmr students : dun get so happy!!! U STILL HAVE SPM!!!! ( feel like slapping them 1 by 1 ) XD

my testimony......

I’m born in a family where my father is a free-thinker, and my mother and siblings are Christians. I was brought to church when I was still young. I actually attended Sunday School back then. Even though I attended Sunday School, my main point of coming to Sunday School is to brush up my English and have fun. In that age, religion doesn’t seem to be part of my life.

When I was small, I don’t really have a good character as well. I am hot tempered. I scold foul words at people who tease me. Even though I know it’s wrong, I continue saying it . Besides that, telling lies is also a part of my life. Futhermore, I will also blame other people when I do something wrong.

After I have completed stardard 6, I attended a church meeting called Teens’ Company where all the teenagers meet together to study the Bible. From then on, I no longer come to church to brush up my English and have fun. I started to learn more about Christ. When I was Form 1, I couldn’t remember what, but something really struck me and I accepted Christ as my personal Savior and Lord. I was baptized on 27 August 2006.

As I continue my walk with Christ daily, my life began to change. I tried not to say foul words to my friends when they tease me and I also try to control my anger against them. Sometimes, when I did something wrong, I will not blame other people as I’m the one who did that wrong thing. Because of this, I believe that the Holy Spirit has worked in me. Besides that, I also began to trust Him more and more. I am thankful and grateful that I accepted Christ. My days have never been the same since I became a Christian.

41 days more....

my goodness.... time fly so FAST!!!!~~~~
wen i go to skul today, i oni know tat i left 41 days for spm exam...
ARGH!!!! y time fly till so fast??!!!
wit bout 1 month and 1 week time....
MUST STUDY!!! GAMBATEH!!!!!

my days?

oh.. i haven't been visiting tis blog for quite sometime... sori ya.. no mood to update.. hehehehe
hmm.. my days wasn't tat good tis days..
WHY??
DUN ASK ME LA!!!
hahahaha... i'm kinda hot temper tis days.. i dun wan too.......... but if i treated some of u badly, i'm so so so SORRY!!!
recently i'm also having a bad headache thinking whether to go to RBS..
in case some of u dun know RBS.. RBS = Residential Bible School
i have been thinking about it for almost 2 weeks. yet till now i still can't give an answer.
mayb some of u should pray for me too... THANKS YA!!!

Heavenly Father,
should i go for next year RBS? Lord, please give me an answer. I realli dunno which to choose O Lord. Pray Lord that You give me an answer and i know what You plan for me is best for me. O Lord, i also want to pray that You give continue to give me strength. I also want to pray that I can plan my time wisely. Just want to commit this time into Your Hands
In Jesus name i pray
Amen!

strait jacket feeling

Back me down from backing up
Hold your breath now it's stacking up
Etched with marks, but I can deal
And you're the problem and you can't feel
Try this on, straitjacket feeling
so maybe I won't be alone
Take back now, my life you're stealing

Yesterday was hell
But today I'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me again

Trust you is just one defense
off a list of others, you don't make sense
Beg me time and time again
to take you back now, but you can't win
Take back now, my life you're stealing

Yesterday was hell
But today I'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me
but today I'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you

And when that memory slips away
There'll be a better view from here
And only lonesome you remains
and just the thought of you I fear
it falls away

Yesterday was hell
But today I'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me
but today I'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you

Lazy... Yawn... Zzzz

wa... after cg outing... leg pain... walk too much ady it think...
after come back from pyramid actually plan to sleep.. wake up den do some work tat my sis gave me... NOT SOME... IS ALOT!!! but... everything go another way..
I SLEPT ALL THE WAY TILL THE NEXT MORNING.. more than 12 hours!! hehehe...
the next morning.. wake up... wit my hair messy n my stomach crying for food cos last nite din eat dinner... so wen down... eat eat eat.. watch tv. eat eat eat... watch tv... so boring...
so tats my day...
end here... yawn.. zzz

BORING AH!!!

NICHOLAS!!! BILALAH CG OUTING KITA!!! DAH TAK DAPAT TUNGGU LA!!
Y HOLIDAY SO BORING WAN AH??
skulling days oso say boring.. holiday oso boring... APA SUDAH JADI LA!!!
haih... Y SO BORING!!!
SOME1 TELL ME WHY!!!
*ARGH* MADNESS TO DA MAX!!!!

YEAH YEAH!!!

YES LA!!! no more exam ady.. time to relax down...
anyway.. coming back to update abit oni.. hehehehe.. lazy to update la.. zzzzz
exam week not realli nice... ( who likes exams )...
now holidays.. erm... dunno wat to do during holidays actually...
i think i will be here studying for my spm... =.= haih...
until here.. chiaoz...

LOL!!!

wow... i just found out tat i din update my blog for a long time...
hahaha... i nearly forgot my password...
just here to update...
so tata... xD